For the past several days I’ve been receiving emails from different groups condemning the murder of George Floyd. Like many of you, I’m angry, I’m frustrated, I’m exhausted. But not just because of George Floyd, or Breonna Taylor or Ahmaud Arbery. I’m exhausted because of the systematic racism and discrimination that I and other Black people have felt for our entire lives in this country.

Let me explain.

So many of these emails have stated a few things that have floored me including:

– We’re committed to doing everything we can to support the black community
– We’re cannot stand on the sidelines while these injustices are taking place

Capitalization.
These may not seem problematic on its face but it is. To the first point, the b in Black should be capitalized. We give the same respect to Hispanic, Latinx and Caucasian people. Why don’t we provide the same respect for Black people?

Standing on the sidelines.
This is 100% problematic because it insinuates two things:

– You saw these injustices as wrong chose to do nothing
– Your privilege afforded you the ability to not give it a second thought because it has no impact on your day to day life

While I’m grateful that more people have woken up, I also notice the timing of these emails have come after the numerous protests over the weekend rather than when the murder took place.

Growing up Black isn’t easy. While most kids get “the birds and the bees” talk from there parents, we have discussions about what it means to be Black in America, how to speak in mixed company, and so on.

– It means being followed in retail stores because they think you’re going to steal something.

– It means being stared at by White people when you’re in a fancy restaurant or staying at a nice resort. I can’t tell you the number of times people asked if my dad played football as if that’s the only way we could be in this position.

– It means watching people hold the purse closer to their body when you walk by or lock the doors to their car because you must be a criminal.
– It means watching droves of White people storm state capitals with rifles freely, while peaceful protesters are tear-gassed, beaten and arrested.
– It means being harassed by law enforcement with or without cause. There’s a phrase for this, DWB: Driving While Black.

As for myself, the situation runs deeper. As a Black Queer woman, there is no part of my identity that can claim a sense of privilege. When I look for respite in the other communities that make up the other parts of my identity, I see mirrored forms of discrimination.

There are groups for women that exclude non-binary and trans women and are predominately geared towards White women.

There are LGBTQ+ groups large and small mostly run by White men, that have just as many problems with race as the larger society does.

To these two groups, I’ve often asked myself the question: is this intentional? Are you just emulating mainstream society as a result of wanting to prove you’re just as good as them? Or is that because you see yourself in the crowd you don’t notice anyone is missing?

It’s not enough to put diverse faces on a flyer and say you’ve tried. That’s the equivalent of putting gender neutral restroom signs in the workplace and claiming you’re now a champion of diversity and inclusion. While well intentioned, if this is the only action taken towards dismantling discrimination, these actions are purely performative rather transformative and is a far cry from true allyship.

I firmly believe people are “waking up” to this injustice because our lives have been stopped by a pandemic and therefore don’t provide the convenient distraction it normally does. So many of these emails have vowed to do their part to end police violence.

For us Black people, we know that will never be a reality. David McAtee was killed by Louisville police less than a week after George Floyd. My hope is for accountability by the people carrying out these murders.

I challenge every single person to take a hard look inside themselves to address the racism or biases they have, the challenges their organizations face and how to do better going forward. Not just at this moment in history.

For those of you who don’t know how to start their journey of introspection, try starting with the Five Whys technique.

I’ll leave you with this quote, “If you think you are too small to make a difference, try sleeping with a mosquito in the room.”

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What do you do and why?
I’m the Founder and CEO of MyUmbrella, which is a mobile app that acts as a safe platform aimed at marginalized members of the LGBTQ+ community to connect and share stories about navigating the journey of living openly and authentically in their relationships, families and friendships on a larger scale than any other social networking platform currently available.

I started the company due to the combination of fear I felt post-election and the frustration of seeing LGBTQ spaces dominated by white men. The community is wonderfully diverse and deserves to be represented and connected outside of the bar/club scene.

What did you do before you started your company?
I obtained land approvals for residential and commercial development projects. I went to undergrad for architecture and went on to receive a master’s degree in real estate development.

What’s the single most important piece of advice you received when first starting your company? What would you tell a young entrepreneur in turn?
Don’t punk out. When it gets hard, don’t punk out.

I still consider myself a young entrepreneur, but if I had to give advice it would be to imagine what you could accomplish if you removed all barriers and what that would feel like. Then tell yourself the story of how you got to that point. Then work your way backwards until you can get to actionable items that you can start to tackle.

What aspect of business ownership came as the biggest surprise to you?
The amount of emotional management it requires. It’s like being on a roller coaster day to day and at times hour to hour. It’s important to be as even keeled as possible and save your energy for the big fires.

What do you find most rewarding about owning your own business?
The most rewarding thing is stopping to see how far you’ve come from when it was just a simple thought to seeing your ideas come to life right before your eyes.

Where do you see yourself and your company in five years?
In 5 years I hope to have built a truly supportive community across the world. I would love to have a robust series of workshops, retreats and events. A big dream of mine would be to have a mentor program similar to the Big Brother/Sister programs.

What resources would you recommend to someone who is contemplating starting her own business?
Listening to “How I Built This” from NPR is a good zen moment for me. Hearing how large companies started from humble beginnings is inspiring and gives me hope. Also, read read read books on business strategy from subject matter experts.

What would you say is the single most important key to sustaining a business long term?
Perseverance.

What obstacles did you face in establishing your company and how did you overcome them?
Belief in myself was the biggest hurdle. Finding my north star, my why, was the push forward I needed.

Is there anything we didn’t ask you about that you’d like to share with our readers?
I want people to know that my goal is to bring a sense of community and comfort to those that need it most. I wish I had this growing up. It’s the struggles and trauma I experienced related to my orientation that gets me out of bed in the morning. So long as those memories persist, I will never stop fighting.

Learn more about MyUmbrella on Facebook and Twitter, or download it on Apple or Android.

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